Rebalanced

"But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved." Ephesians 2:4-5 

There are particular moments where I am struck by the degree of my sin. Today, I was hit by my anger and self-righteousness toward another sinner. Even though I may persuade myself for a time that I'm in the right, I know deep down that the truth is quite the opposite. Sooner or later that truth dawns on me and with it comes a rush of emotions: guilt, regret, and the desire to change what I've done.

Today, that desire was to repair the damage I know has been done to both me and her. I wanted to do everything I could to make up for my wrongs. The problem is, the more I realized the extent of my sin, the more I came to see that I can never make up for it. I can apologize, ask for forgiveness, change my behavior, and reach out, but even that will never be enough to rebalance the scale again.

Our sin weighs us down so heavily that we have no hope of freeing ourselves. Though we try, our efforts are to no avail. But along came one who can free us from sin. Christ paid for everything in full. By the grace of God, my scale has been rebalanced. Now, I've been a Christian as long as I can remember, but that grace still blows my mind. Every time it hits me, I am filled even more with love for my God and joy in him.